I haven't been on here in a while or made much progress, but, I just watched Jillian Michaels' "Maximize your Life" and am newly inspired. My life has been stress city. We had a custody battle, in which the bio-Mom was on a major brainwashing-alienating campaign and my husband ended up allowing the step-dad to adopt them. They moved to Costa Rica, permanently. That was over a year ago.
On the bright side, we bought a new home! My husband is starting a new career! Things are really looking up for us. Its been a long hard road, so, it's about damn time!!!
My weight sky-rocketed to 230, but is now down to 220. I have a Planet Fitness membership. Today, I am going to begin eating less and moving more. My meals do not, in any way, push me over the edge calorie wise. I just need to cut out alcohol and snacking. That's it.
But, I will have to replace that with something. Crack I think. No? Not a good idea? Okay then, maybe I will just make blog posts and that will be my new obsession and I won't self-medicate with food. Maybe I will practice my piano. I don't really know yet, but I can't use food anymore. That's what they just don't get. There is an underlying reason that we medicate with food. Our medicine can't just be taken away and replaced with nothing. That's cruel.
Maybe my problem, is I don't have a strong enough "why". Have you heard that one? A favorite among the ultra fit. Not all bad, but my "why" seems very superficial so I can't feel too passionate about it. Longevity - big whoop. Maybe I want to maximize my life. What the hell does that mean? Become an adrenaline junkie? No. Well, something to figure out.
